I love vintage things! Going antiquing reminds me of sweet memories from growing up in the 50’s. It was a lazy Saturday when I suggested to my husband that we visit one of our favorite antique shops. As we entered the store, I spotted a little red and white child-sized cabinet I had often admired. Today it was on sale. Looking down, I got choked up. With tears in my eyes. I wistfully told my husband, “It’s ridiculous to buy this…I don’t have any little children around the house to play with it…”
I had wanted to be a Grandma for over eight years. Both of my married sons and their wives had experienced years of infertility treatments and losses. Earlier that week, I was praying intensely about this in the middle of the night. I had moved past the kind of anxious prayers that pleaded with God to give me what I wanted when I wanted it. I knew according to the Scripture that I was to cast my cares upon the Lord, but at the same time, I knew I could freely pour out my heart’s desire before Him. I ended my prayer with a sincere plea….”Please don’t let me want my desires over your desires Lord…not my will, but yours be done!” As I returned to bed that night, my sleep was peaceful as I rested in the will of my Heavenly Father who I knew loved me.
My prayer for you is that whatever issue it is you are dealing with that you would be able to cast your cares at the feet of the One who loves and you and died for you. In Hebrews 11:1, it says, Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. Sometimes we need to trust God when we don’t understand and keep trusting…and hoping…and dreaming until we do.
Back at the antique shop, determined to avoid spending money foolishly, I turned to walk away from that sweet little cabinet. As I did, my husband gently put his hand on my shoulder and whispered in my ear “it doesn’t hurt to dream, does it?”. I turned around and looked into his pretty blue gentle eyes and said resolutely. “No…no it doesn’t hurt to dream”! Needless to say, that little white cabinet was loaded into our truck that day along with a ray of sunny hope.
Casting all your anxiety upon him because he cares for you (NIV)
I Peter 5:7
Since 2011, Rosie has had four grandchildren and one on the way!